Nomad JuanCa's Report

Hi, today i had a nice chat with Irina (Bulgaria) and she pointed something i had not noticed. I'm becoming too negative. I think you all will agree with me and her that it is understandable due to the dramatic changes i have faced in the lapsus of a month.... but still she said something smart (as always): "You know.. i really think you are in a great position in life, cause it is giving you the chance to enjoy every second you live..and live it to the fullest". And i though yeah, it is right... but i don't feel so. I know it is true, but i am perhaps scared of re-starting again. I've been hit too much lately.

Although Irina's words stayed in my mind whole day, sounding and sounding... i decided to take my first step to change my "angle of view" like Irina said. If some of you remember... i was reading "The art of happiness" book, based on Dalai Lama's speeches before i was hit by the truck. Lol. I remember myself being so full of energy and hope, and very high spiritually.... until my whole world disappeared just in one second. All this ... you know it. What you don't know is that since the moment i got ill... i stopped reading that book. I knew i had it, i knew i didn't finish it.... but i just could not open it. I though it was useless... "art of happiness"??? NOW?? WHAT HAPPINESS???!!. I rejected to read the book again, for around a month.

Irina's words changed my mind today... so watched two movies "300" and "Open Season" (I know i know... i like cartoon movies, so what? :))) And then ... i decided that my first step toward my own resurrection would be to re-start with the book again. I know where i left it before Stichito moved with me (Lol) but i decided i would start the whole book again... because the old me read it, but for me... for this new me... it is my first time with this book. So... i am glad. I feel happy getting back on track and slowly do the things that the Old JuanCa could not do before dying.... this is my first step toward RESURRECTION.

What's next? i don't know.... and i don't care... let's go day by day... OK? Big hugs. By the way, i have the book in Spanish in a doc file if any of you want it, drop me an email. it is free.

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