Nomad JuanCa's Report

Artist: Frente! /Song: Bizarre Love Triangle /Country: Australia

Well... there are some things happening in my life that i sometimes cannot believe. Sometimes things happen and i think... "oh no.. here we go again". Not all things are bad... but believe me the coincidences today has been too obvious.

First of all... today i took the tests... finally. I woke up 6.15am and managed to be at Hospital at 7.15am. I was done by 8.45am. The took 3 bottles of blood from me... i though i would fade away... I was a bit nervous cause there were couple of new and young Drs in the laboratory taking samples... i didn't want to be with any of them... they would be surprised and afraid of taking blood sample to an Hiv+ person.... i didn't want to scare anyone today... the one who was scared was me. I hate needles. They handed me my sample of blood again... to take to the Dr. Villao's office... i don't like it... it is not scientifically correct... but come on, i am in the third world... who cares what is scientifically correct over here??

I went to try to ask for my prescriptions... the usual answer. NOTHING. I took the chance to go to dermatologist to ask him for some prescription for my labial issue. I feel it is growing instead of disappearing... he prescribed me some pills (Aciclovir x 30u). As i had no official appointment with him today he said i could not request the meds at Hospital but i had to buy them outside ... no problem, perhaps they didn't have them at Hospital anyways. I am taking a pill every 4 hours.

Met some patients at Hospital who also meet my Dr. said hi to them. Other's were nervous when they saw me... but when i greeted a Hiv+ patient, they seemed to feel more comfortable with my presence... we are all involved in so much fear......

While i was leaving hospital the girl from Guayaquil bank called me... i hanged off the phone call by mistake ...hehehehehe!!. I answered her and told her i had taken a decision... i would sign the docs for the payment agreement and cancel the credit card... . Well... i didn't think much about it yesterday.... i knew there was not much i could do... i usually would have asked my mother and sister for advice.. but since we argued i had to think about it alone. I always fear to fail... and more after diagnosed... well... i saw no way out so they had me in their hands. I signed the docs today, i will have to pay 42 usd next month and then i will pay 39 usd during 24 months.. aha... it is going to be long. Tonight i got home and my mother had left me on my desk a letter from judge of civil affairs.... another credit card is establishing a demand on me. I freaked out... SHIT!! Not now!!. As usual i cannot face these things right now because of the terror attack they give me... i didn't even read the letter... i haven't... i called my mother cause she is a lawyer... if i have to go to court.. she will represent me. I talked to her and she told me it is usual procedure... there is no prison for debts in penal code. Ufff....at least. I don't want to go to jail these days... not now.... not after all this. I don't even want to think about it.

Perhaps tomorrow i will read that letter... today i don't feel ready to do it.

I have been fighting by email with the people of the coalition of people living with Aids, with the people running the country mechanism of control for the EU/Global Fund and people running the plan against hiv/aids...... why? because few days ago this email was being delivered all over the city:

"A big favour, forward this email to as many people as you can so they can see the pics of this bastard who destroyed the life of my friend and contagious her with Aids... so we could perhaps unable this asshole to keep on contagious people..

ANDRES EDUARDO LAVAYEN CARMINIANI

This is a monster with a disturbed mind who is contagious every person who is having sex with him because he is bisexual!!! he is a carrier of Hiv (Aids) since long time ago.... if you see him SCAPE!!! because your life is in danger, he looks like a normal guy but his only intention is to destroy and transmit this maquiavelus virus to all the people he can.

Lets help us!!! Andrea Macias is one of the victims... and you or one of your loved ones could be the next.

Send this email to all your contacts so he cannot do what he wants, and this mortal chain stops here!!

He is among us, he lives here in Guayaquil and is a monster under a human skin."

They sent 2 clear pictures of the person, but i just deleted them cause if i publish them i would be contributing to the damage caused to this person.

I am not exaggerating, this is literally what the sender wrote. I could track the sending email, this was sent by a guy working for Government taxes office. This email was widely spread in the city, my boss got it and next day Myriam posted it in the coalition email website. The fight i am having with them is because none has said a word.... none of the so called "leaders" ever cared... I don't know this guy, nor know if he is guilty or not but this is not the right way to solve this kind of things, if anyone has a complain... establish a demand, but don't send stupid emails just like that because it is creating more pressure on us who are not guilty of anything. I have fought... fought with the president of the coalition, fought with the president of MCP for the EU (a Dr from Health Ministry)... i have fought to every possible person who should be responsible to SAY something about this and is not doing a single shit. I put in doubt their motivation to fight against Hiv and the effectivity of their work... because it is truth, i doubt of them. I know this is not the end of the world, but come on... you see.. he even sent pics of this guy... what if this guy in the pic is not Hiv+?? what if it is only gossips?? what if this guy in the pics is Hiv+ but he didn't know so he infected that girl.... what if he knew and he did it careless....what will happen with t he rest of us who are not guilty for this guy actions???. If he is guilty... send him to jail. BUT send him to jail... not send US to jail with him too.

I feel these leaders in the fight against Hiv are USELESS. And i have said it to them.... i guess i am not much loved in the coalition of people living with Aids, nor in the MCP for the EU at this time. I just hope some truth in their faces will kick their asses.

Well.. now lets go to the coincidences that named this blog.

Yesterday night i was downtown and met someone, interesting girl... mmm... not so much my style but not so bad either...we started to talk and wow... she had a brain!! (i am NOT saying girls do not have brains, i know most of them have.... i just mean that i have met few who do not have... just to clarify). Well we talked and talked and talked and i asked her what she did for living and she told me "I am coordinator in a medical trial". "wow... really?" - I said.... come on... a scientist girl!!! isn't it exciting???.... and sexy!!!. I asked her what kind of trial was that and she answered "We are making a trial with people in risk of infection of Hiv and giving them some doses of Truvada one of the ARVs to see its efficacy as Pre Exposure Prophylaxis". "Oh God.... here we go again..." i though. I don't know why i am calling all Hiv workers, researchers and all that people... i am just meeting them everywhere. Well.. the girl is interesting, we talked more and it happens i have good knowledge about the current research for the Hiv vaccine so i made some questions... i tried not to seem to have "much" knowledge cause that would have disclosed me as Hiv+ (no normal people know as much of Hiv as Hiv+ patients). Not sure if i put myself on evidence.... i hope i did not.

Second coincidence happened today at work, i was preparing an invoice for a client and another client requested a product i was preparing the invoice and rised my face to look at the client..... it was Jorge from Care Ecuador, the man i have met twice while delivering my testimony.... Oh God! I got afraid.... he is a cool man, he is friendly, i mean i smiled and said "heeey!!! so cool to see you!!!". He was also surprised, i was yet nervous.... i mean i was at work... i knew he would not put me in evidence, but i was nervous anyways... fears and more fears.... i hate them. He said we were meant to meet cause today he was thinking of me and remembered he had not sent me the Ecuadorian Plan to fight Aids developed and being implemented in this country. So i hope he will cause it is the second time he said so. I haven't finished reading the file Ma Isabel from Care sent me, i am in the page 11 from 26. You see... coincidences happen everywhere....

Labels: New life, same illness