Nomad JuanCa's Report

Guess ... late at night on sunday, yeah i was just finishing a surprise and sending it. I hope everything works out fine and i think you will be quite happy once knowing the result. So let's wait and see.

Today in the afternoon i was dying tired at work... damn... i could not remain awake... Ricardo my co worker looked at me like wondering what was happening... i could not stand the need of sleeping.... i told him "you know i am very tired, i need to sleep... could you serve clients while i sleep for a while?". Yeah... i know.. it is not supposed i should do this at work, i am a hard worker really... but today i was talking to clients and falling sleep almost in front of them... there was a moment when i could not go on....

I am not sure how long i slept.... perhaps one or two hours.... then i was feeling a bit better, just thirsty... I think i am making a bad combination of bad costumes for eating, few sleeping time and Hiv. I fear sometimes when i feel so tired... fear my CD4 could be going down and down... but at the same time i try to think it is not about my CD4, it should be that i stay awake until late at night and usually sleeps 5 to 6 hours every day. Or could be both... on August 14th i will get to know. I wonder how i would feel if the my CD4 tests are lower than previous one... i mean, i know thats what should happen.... my CD4 is supposed to go down in the long run... i just desire so much it would go up and up and never come down. I can say i am somehow educated about Hiv to face a lower CD4, at least mentally... but emotionally is another thing. I hate when i left my ID Dr office trembling... i just simply hate that!!!.

Today i took my pills (vitamins) yuppie!!!! but i have to admit i have no schedule for them yet. I mean i don't like to take pills, i was never a pills lover... i am not used to them. When i take mines it is ok, i almost don't think about Hiv... but i hate the idea of needing to follow a schedule for them.... i don't want to. So right now i am having them... but not having them under any schedule... just under my own motivation and timing. I need time to adjust to this pills stuff... i need more time.

Today i watched a soccer game on TV!!!. It is big news since i don't watch tv and i don't watch soccer games at all...i have always said i prefer to play soccer instead of watching it (i used to be a good soccer player...mmm.... 10 years ago?). Although today there was a good reason... LOCOMOTIVE team from Moscow was playing!!! I could only watched the first part of the game, i think it was against Milan team (or something like that... you see, i am not good in watching soccer) but until the time i stopped watching (half game) Locomotive (ФК Локомотив Москва ) was 3 to 1. Ochen Kruto!!!! You can imagine myself seating very close to the TV with a small russian flag in my hand moving it like if i was in the stadium :) Yeah, it felt good :). I should have gone to the stadium to see soccer games when i was in Moscow, i have to do it some day.

By the way, Max sent this to the list of the Ecuadorian Coalition of People living with Aids, being that this blog is been seen by so many people right now... i though someone could find this interesting... check it out.

Dear friends, dear fellow LGBT activists, ILGA plans to launch a world report on state regulations that forbid or impede HIV positive people from travelling to some countries, mid-October. We hope that a launch in October will allow LGBT and other groups to campaign with this report around December 1 2007.

As we did with the State-sponsored Homophobia world report, we are working with an existing report. This "HIV/Aids Travel and Residence Regulations for HIV+ people" is the work of Peter Wiessner, from the German Aids Foundation and David Haerry who now collaborates with the European Aids Treating Group (EATG).

This report can be seen online at http://www.eatg.org/hivtravel/

We are now looking for volunteers who could translate and proofread this report in the following languages:

- From English to Portuguese
- From English to Spanish
- From English to Russian

If interested, please write to volunteers@ilga.org or stephenbarris@ilga.org

I thank you in advance for your continued support, Stephen Barris / ILGA

Ilga is a network of gay people working on calling the attention about this issue but i think the request for volunteers is opened to anyone (gay or not) who would like to cooperate with this report. As some of you may know... nowadays there are many different countries banning the entry of poz visitors for different reasons. To help this report could be a way to help to call the attention about this issue. Ok, gotta go to sleep now, have a good night.

Labels: New life, same illness