Nomad JuanCa's Report

Hi there guys, how you doing? i think it was time to post an update for you about how my life is going.

I have been out of blogsphere because i wanted to have a time out, have been questioning myself lately why should i keep on writing about my life with Hiv. I mean, for me it is important to let others see and know... and even understand the way we Hiv+ see life. Even though, after 5 months diagnosed with this disease i would say my life has got a bit back to normal. Perhaps i have some things more clear now... like the need of keeping a good health, the conscience we will die some day...and that it won't happen soon... the difference with others is perhaps the fact we Hiv+ have accepted the final destiny of all human being as something real and closer than it is for most of the people around us. Together with he acceptance comes the chance to handle the fear and overcome it. Lately i have met some astonishing people. I posted about them in my Spanish Hiv Blog, i think you can read it translated to English by clicking in here. The translation is not perfect but i think it might be understandable.

The last post i wrote there took me long to be written.. and it took lot of my emotional energy as i was crying while writing... the kind of stories that are so shocking for you.. that you will only reproduce them once.

Well.. i have some good and some not good news for you. The good ones are... MY CREDIT CARDS ARE NOT CANCELLED!!! I mean the ones from Guayaquil Bank, somehow i could save them :) i am right now almost up-to-date with them i owe them 3usd that i cannot pay right now cause i already spent my whole salary paying stuff. It is ok, don't worry... something will happen. I am very optimistic right now, today morning i was worried and stressed about how to manage to survive until the end of the month... but right now i have the feeling that something will happen. Somehow... some way... The bad news is that i will have to pay a HUGE phone bill next month. And when i say Huge i am not exaggerating. Ok it was my mistake, i have been thinking and found a chance to solve it. Next month according to law we must receive some bonus so with that i will manage to fix it all... but really i will stop connecting to internet from home as it has proved that my addiction to internet could ruin me (...more?). LOL!!! Sorry some black humor sense :)))))

When things do get solved the first thing i will ensure is my internet access... but i will also try to reduce my surfing hours... addictions are not good things.

My health is doing great, haven't started diet... or better say... i started diet today, not because i wanted but due to financial constrains i have. Although you see... that's why they say "the end justify the means" :))). I am somehow eating light right now, and starting to take breakfast as my nutritionist advised me to do it. Not much money (not money at all) for fast food so that will help me to reduce the triglycerides and cholesterol. I even might lose some weight... which is what i want to. I am overweighted.

At work things are sort of fine, we are negotiating and hoping they pay us part of the sales of last month, because we did good sales despite we didn't reach the goal. We'll see. I am still looking for other options, even though i am so used to this job that it is hard to move on... i mean i know i should, but it feels so convenient... and off course it might be convenient but that won't help me to pay my debts. I am ok, i am calmed, relaxed and as usual... i am late for bed 1.50am. Tomorrow work in the afternoon but i have to wake up 10am to deliver back this internet device to the store and then get my haircut. So leave you by now. Have a great weekend.

Labels: New life, same illness