Nomad JuanCa's Report

Hi people, long time without writing huh?. Lot of things have been going on in my life lately... specially regarding my health. Last time i wrote to you i told you i was feeling sick.... well... it lasted more than i would have expected.

I had to go through lot of things, from going to ER (Emergency Room) at Social Security Hospital... getting exams done, being referred to a gatroenterologist... more labs done and even having to see how the laboratory from Social Security Hospital mistaken my exams... delivering me a rheumatism test instead of a Widall reaction.... and then meeting the gastroenterologist for hearing he thinks that me having diarrhoea and vomiting and shitting color green was not urgent stuff and wanting me to wait until October 11th to meet me. Like if my health could wait so long.

Well... whatever, luckily things are better now, they finally found i have amoebas (Histolytic and Coli). It does not seem to be a big thing, just for the fact that amoeba histolytic does kill over 100.000 people around the world yearly. Although off course, that is in places where people cannot get proper health care.... like here?. Oh well... at least i met my ID Dr and she already gave me prescription for a 10 days treatment to get rid of them. I am optimistic about this.

Plus i was once more advised i have to be carefull with my food, so since now and on... no more eating outside (or at least not as much as before) and well i guess i sort of learnt the lesson. I mean it is going to be hard not to eat outside since i live alone and i have no fridge and no electricity at home soooooo... we'll see.

Apart from that little but scary health problem i guess my life have been ok, lately i have made a big amount of latin poz friends over internet, which has been great and at the same time frustrating. Everybody says it is great i can deal with this so well and that i am very openned about this and that i can face and try to change the way society here looks at poz patients... but none is interested in doing the same. Which is actually frustrating. I am a bit tired of talking to some people who are poz but avoid to talk about the issue, avoid meeting others who are not poz and even... avoid meeting other poz patients. I guess i went trhough same isolating process... but i just don't want to go back there. I want to live free... free of fear and free of stigma. I want to live.

I am trying to meet like minded people in here... but i haven't met any. Isn't it amazing?. So when i was hidden i felt myself isolated and now that i am out into the light about my health status... i feel myself isolated too. What the fuck!.

Lately i have decided to slow a bit my activism activities and focus more on myself, this issue with my health that i had to face alone (just with the help of my family) made me reflect that i have to think about future. I hadn't done much for my future and i have to if i want to ensure i will not face problems later on. It called the attention of my boss when i was sick this week, i hope he is not suspecting though he was asking what Drs said after every appointment i had.

I have came out with some ideas, i had started to create a website where i want to start doing some sales a bit apart from what i do in my job, i had some announcements in mercadolibre.com.ec (similar to ebay) but now they are charging some comission... so it is increasing the price of the items i used to sell that way. With this website i am hoping to start making money my way and slowly finding some stable income until i finally can ensure myself some stability without depending on somoene else.

I had also applied for another position inside the company's headquarters, i would say i fit the profile... but perhaps they disagree with me... i'll see. They haven't told me anything after i delivered my application. Lets see. Today i came to the Mall del Sol with my laptop (it finally works out again... i am so amazed it is still alive... perhaps the laptop is a fighter just like me LOL).

About my debts i am up-to-date with the banks i had signed payment agreements and it seems i got to keep and "save" my visa credit card and my current bank account, although i am still having problems with 3 other places where i haven't paid anything.... nor signed any agreement, i am still missing 50 usd of this laptop and i was told that someone from this company went yesterday to "visit me" at work. There were some periods without stress lately but i guess it is coming back. I wish i could solve it all. Pity i can't pay all that shit at this time, with the current amount i am paying i have only 30 usd for myself monthly. Don't even ask me how i can survive... God is just too good with me.

Anyways, i am sort of fine right now... just feel i bit weak, don't know why... perhaps the effect of the metronidazol i am taking for the amoebas. I had eaten already but feel my stomache emtpy, and few desires of vomitting. Well, lets see what is going on in the next days, i will try to keep you posted on how the things go. I am so waiting for this year to finish.... it has not been anything good for me.... i am a bit scared next one could be even harder... but i hope not, come on... how bad can it be? hasn't it been enough already?. I expect 2008 will be a lot better. I am just counting the days for this year to finish. I won't need to wait much.